January 25
Things have been difficult for me lately, I’m doing my best to keep fighting. I want to be better, I want to be stronger. Not only for myself but for my loved ones as well. I’ve been feeling worthless, like no matter how hard I fight, I feel like it’s never enough, like what I do is never good enough to change things. When I’m feeling down I think of my Grandmother. I never got to meet her, she passed away before I was born. She was a fighter, till the end. My goal is to be as strong as she was, but how? I know I need to make a change in my life, I’m not happy. I’ve reached back out to my counselor, talking with her is helping. I’m trying to focus on controlling my emotions, and figuring out what sets me off when I get in one of my moods. I’m making more changes in my diet and trying to exercise more. I will keep fighting and I won’t give up, no matter how rough times are. As long as I have my husband and my doggie by my side, I will only get stronger.